October 14, 2011

The Tyranny of the List

I have a lot of lists. When I realize there's something I need to do, I write it down so I won't forget. My list making exploded soon after I became a father, because the added complexity of tracking one (and now two) extremely fast and mobile and clever little persons 24-7 so taxes my poor mind that otherwise I'd forget things left and right. So: lots of lists, all done in my marginally-legible on-the-way-to-schizophrenic-conspiracy-theory handwriting (arrows included).

I have lists of things I want to hike and ski, lists of things to add to this website, lists of things that are broken on this website that need fixing, lists of things that aren't broken but that I'd still love to fix, lists of things I'd like to buy, lists of things I need to get rid of, lists of things I need to do right now (example: soccer 10:30 a.m. bring water & cheddar bunnies), and so on...

I accumulate my lists in stacks of paper on my desk, and when they get out of control, I transfer as much of the non-priority stuff as I can to email drafts in my cloud account, where they sit and wait. My wife asks if I feel good when I cross something off a list, but I always say no, because I know there's always something else out there that still needs to get done. I suppose I do have a fantasy of someday somehow crossing every item off every list, but of course that's never going to happen, not unless I revert to a bushman's life. And even then...

And then this morning, it suddenly came to me: I need a new list. The title of this list will be, "The List of Things that will Never Get Done." It's perfect, because anything on that list will never cause me anxiety. I mean, if it will never get done, I don't need to worry about doing it, right? Anxiety-free listing. All I have to do is figure out how to transfer everything on my other lists to the new list, the One List, and then I will be free. Anyhow, gotta go. Soccer practice is coming up, and then I need to vacuum...

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